Friday, August 19, 2011
A Sad Story :)
I'm having a bit of a breakdown. I've realized something about myself that is not "just what I've always wanted." In fact it is something I have never wanted. I am oficially frumpy. I am that mom in the grocery store with the pony tail, t-shirt and shorts. I haven't gone to sweat pants yet and don't plan to. That is a little too far, even for my currently style-challenged self. Somedays I don't even get dressed until 2 o'clock. I work from home a lot and the rest of my time is occupied by caring for our home and our babies. I love my life. I do not love, however, my un-fancy self. I remember growing up and thinking that I never wanted to become a frumpy mom. In my naive 12-year-old mind I would think, "how much time and effort does it really take to fix yourself up a little?" Rude kid. Anyway, this doesn't just happen overnight. It is a steady and gradual happening. When you start out romancing your guy, you are all about how you look. You have time to and work hard at looking great. When you get married you realize that it's inevitable that he's going to see you looking crazy. The decline begins. The battle is being lost at this point. Frumpy has started to take ground. When your children come along you gain weight and lose sleep and appearance is the last thing on the priority list. Your old, cool clothes don't fit anymore and so you get rid of them so that you don't have to be disappointed about carrying extra pounds. Cue the sad music. Blare it loud right now. Then the next child comes along and you find yourself sliding, like an avalanche, down the mountain into frumpy land. Sad, but true. Now that I have discovered this about myself, I can only go up from here. I am going to work hard to do a little better. Maybe I'll iron my clothes some days. I probably won't because I am the WORST at ironing. Forget that part. Maybe I will ask CHRIS to iron my clothes some days. He's very good at ironing. Maybe I will go and buy a pair of cute shoes. Maybe I will start small and slowly work back into the much more presentable person that I used to be. We'll see. I'm not claiming to have ever been a stylish diva. When I was in Junior High I wore Winnie the Pooh shorts, a CAT SWEATER complete with faux fur and snap pants. Of course I didn't wear those things all together. I was a style disaster. But somehow I always had friends. And they were cool people too. I think this must be a tribute to my personality. Thank you, Lord, for giving me a personality that exceeds my cool factor. Amen.